On the edge of happiness...

Three years…or…2 years 7 months 17 days 15 hours to be precise… Is that long enough? A gap long enough to meet someone who has been a part of your existence from you-forgot-when! Whirlwind…that’s how I name it! More of ‘he came, he saw, he conquered’. And I bet it’s not that difficult to conquer the heart of a 22-year old having romantic notions of falling in love. But, am sure you’ll will agree with me, it’s impossible to remain the conqueror as she grows up…amidst makes and breaks…amidst 1000 ‘I love you-s’ and ‘I want to marry you-s’, amidst changing notions…amidst soul talks. And he did the ‘impossible’. There were misunderstandings, ego-clashes, not talking to each other for months, blocking each other’s chat IDs yet stalking each other, ‘I hate you’ for months and suddenly ‘am sorry for getting it all wrong’, and talking from where it all began. Love has always been strange, but this time, I guess its stranger. I mean how can someone fall in love with a face behind some scribbl...

Some stupid…but nevertheless the best things in Life - Falling in love. - Laughing so hard that your face hurts. - A hot shower. - A special glance. - Getting mail. - Taking a ride on a highway (at midnight). - Hearing your favorite song on the radio. - Lying in bed listening to the rain outside. - Hot towels out of the dryer. - Finding the sweater you have always wanted is on sale for half the price. - Cold coffee with ice-cream. - A long distance phone call. - A bubble bath. - Giggling. - A good conversation. - The beach. With waves kissing your feet - Finding a bill in your coat from last winter. - Laughing at yourself - Midnight phone calls that last for hours. - Running through sprinklers. - Laughing for absolutely no reason at all. - Having someone tell you that you're beautiful. - Friends. - Falling in love for the first time. - Accidentally overhearing someone say something nice about you. - Waking up and realizing you still have a few hours left to sleep. - Your fi...

Another month…and probably I will be off for a short vacation. And now, bored with routine work, no one around to talk to…and dreading the thought of yet another call from my mom reminding me I need to settle down (now I really don’t know what does that mean…by industry (read social) standards, I am settled…have a job, have been away from home for 4 years, have loads of friend to hang around with…and most importantly, I am happy most of the times)…just thought of listing down of what awaits me (or bohemian joint-family creatures like us) one month down the line. Here goes the list: Your parents will try to make you go to bed by 11 p.m. latest, while all you can do is stare at the ceiling thinking, “What do I do now till I get sleep at 4 a.m.?” Try sending a text to a friend at 2 a.m., your mom (who will not miss a chance to sleep beside you while you are at home) will wake up saying: “Who is that you are texting? Everybody is sleeping at this hour.” And trust me; you can’t exp...

I’m turning silver tomorrow…have been waiting for this for long! Badly wanted to spend the day doing something I really want to do… Results… Have planned to run away from the city… Checked the yatra.com Website for ‘n’ number of times now…each time returning back from the ‘proceed to payment’ page… Its past five in the evening now and am still thinking if I should just run away…for once in my life… Coaxing myself with cookies that no matter how hard I try, I won’t be able to do that… Looking around and smiling at people randomly… Listening to two songs… “Madno” from Lamhaa and “Rozana Jie” from Nishabd over and over again… Smiling at myself after receiving a call…a cake is on my way crossing 1500km…college (or teenage) love is what you call it…is it?  Wonder why people put so much effort just for a smile… Thinking rationally that I need to work…as if that’s the most important thing left in my life… Surprised my colleagues by stating that I am coming to office tomorrow… Cancell...

Did anyone ever tell me that I would miss my home awfully much? Did anyone ever teach me what to do when on a certain evening the city-I-grew-up-in would whisper deafeningly my name? Have I done so much, grown up so much…that returning to where I come from scares me? Am I aware that I am away for so long …that family is a planned appointment? Was I aware that I am such a different person at work that I no longer remember what I wanted to be at 6? Was I aware that the song that my mom would sing to me when I was a kid is not on my iPod? Have I ever imagined that I can spend an entire afternoon alone? Have I ever imagined that I would wait for rain-walk…and can laugh for no reason at all? Have I ever noticed before when watching the rains that the coconut fronds dance? When was the last time I learnt the best lesson of my life? Was it when dad taught me ‘confusing tense’ at the bus stop? Or was it when ma told me not to talk to strange men before I left the house? W...