A collection of little lives, each lived one day at a time…
Sometimes, on good days, for falling in love
And on other days, thinking of the love that could have been there.
Almost.
If I had three lives, I’d have fallen… Head over heels in love with you on the first. Hopelessly in love. But torn away, Like they always do. Married you in the second. Have babies, and fight for silly things. But patch up every day with a good night kiss, And morning coffee. The third? Perhaps that life over there At DreamCatcher, sitting alone. Writing, a memoir, Maybe diary. Or this poem. No kids probably A small house with a garden. And a view of the sea. And books. Lots of books – and time to read. I’d be thinner in that life, vegan, Practice yoga. I’d go to art films, Drink martinis in swingy skirts. I would walk on the beach at sunrise, find perfect shell spirals and study pockmarks Water makes in the sand. And I would wonder sometimes, If I’d ever find you. Walking on the beach at sunrise. Looking for me.
Months back (or is it years now?) I wrote somewhere, “Naming certain relationships complicate life. So don’t!” From then on, and even before that, I believed in it. And now when I look back, I see more unnamed relationships than named. Not that I can’t give them a name, but I choose not to. Of course, to look at it, all of us have the convenient blanket term ‘friend’ to name it. But somewhere deep down inside, I do know that ‘friend’ does not state it all. Who do I call a friend? Someone who I have been interacting with regularly, share my thoughts and emotions with, or just go out shopping when I have nothing better to do. Or just some random people I say “What’s up dude? Have been thinking of you/ missing you…”? That reminds me…ever thought how “miss you too” is different from “miss you”? It is…trust me! How about missing a habit? As simple as the habit of talking to someone/ about something for hours! Do you miss the person or the habit if it’s curtailed one fine day? Or is it ...
One month down 2015, I have a resolution for myself. With everything happening around me, it suddenly dawned that everything will keep happening…no matter what! But for myself, for the dreams that I have (and those that I killed), I will take travel seriously. Seriously. This year. And as long as I live. Cool…isn’t it? To live to travel. What say?
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