On the edge of happiness...

Another weekend!! With nothing much to do, thought would as well populate my blog. Sounds crazy? Trust me...it's not! It's a much awaited break from the daily routine. I was chatting with an old friend of mine yesterday after a long time...and after all the regular updates ( at times I feel catching up with old friends [read acquintance] is more like the Windows updates, they slow down your system, but still...you need to do it at regular intervals!), he was like...wow!! so you have a job that you love! Huh!! Passionate about job!! I forgot the last time I was passionate about it! Oh yes!! I remember...in last December, when my manager was on a two weeks leave! I enjoyed working then...it's like you have no one to report to, you feel something should be up there in the Website, and you have it right there. But she is back again, and the worst part is...she has to consult her reporting head for every decision she takes. Man!! If she is so confused that she can't decid...

Misty moments drizzle past Something still shimmers The tunes and chimes... Those words and rhymes... Make me wonder... LIFE is, perhaps, a moment! A million stars bloom, A thousand clouds unfurl, Little hopes; Some unseen dreams Make me wonder... LIFE is a sky! Waves break on shores Tears melt in eyes, A swirl, a fallen crest... Make me wonder... LIFE is an ocean! Emotions put to words, A world in verses: Soft lyrics, mystic chimes Make me wonder... LIFE is a tune! Treading eternal desert, An oasis; Zeal to quench thirst... Make me wonder... LIFE is a mirage! Twilight sets heavily, Veil of darkness fall. LIFE is....

There is a fire burning within me...and that fire has a face. It tells me to hope. and within that hope, I have discovered myself. Discovered my worth. I have grown.... I have learnt to love, with all its shortcomings. I have learnt to let go...I have learnt to get up by myself, and move on... I have discovered that for everyone, there are people in this world who love you more than you can you can think. Never throw their love away. Because you might never have anyone else to be loved by. At times, when the going gets tough, people who you least expected come and stand beside you. It's unusual. But it makes no sense to let go off that bond. Perfection in relationships doesn't exist only because we are humans. We can't whine and cry. We have got to move on. When you start giving yourself up completely to your love and friends, platonic or non-platonic, you would find that half the world don't have the capacity to take your love. But still, give your love ...

When tomorrow starts without me And I am not there to see If the sun should rise and find your eyes All filled with tears for me I wish so much you wouldn’t cry The way you did today While thinking of the many things I didn’t get to say I know how much you love me As much as I do And each time that you think of me I know you will miss me too But when tomorrow starts without me Please try and understand That an angel came and called my name And took me by the hand But as I turned to walk away A tear fell from my eye For all the while I always thought I didn’t want to cry I had so much to live for So much yet to do It seemed almost impossible That I was leaving you I thought of all the yesterdays The good ones and the bad I thought of all the love we shared And all the fun we had If I could relive yesterday Just even for a while I’d say good bye and see you Just maybe I’d see you smile But then I fully realized That this could never be Fo...

Friday morning at work! I know something is going on in my mind…a lingering feeling of not knowing something. I know what it is, I know I should get it out of my mind…but I can’t! Life I guess! Ok…getting down to the facts…I have been at office for almost five hours now, and have managed to do only a quarter of what I am supposed to do! But given the fact that weekend starts a few hours from now, I plan to make up for this from home. Huhh!! I know I won’t be able to, but thinking that you have an option makes you feel better. Option! That brings me to another realization. I have realized this the hard way that life is all about choosing a better option. But at times, we are at a loss. Like me…I know what I am SUPPOSED to do logically, but can’t do that dillogically. Is that a new word you heard right now? I said dil-logically. You know, when your mind and heart both works overtime, you are in a perpetual mess. So…I am doing what I am not supposed to do, like write all these s...

"Matite bosano jala Thanda buk bhore aachhe jole Ekhono bujhini bhalo Kaake thik bhalobasa bole..." Just came across this awesome quote by Sankho Ghosh. And trust me…it made my day! The first working day of the year, and am not feeling like working! Nothing new in it though! Thousands thoughts running across my mind…I can’t even name all of them. I had a disturbed sleep last night, don’t know the reason though. I was missing something, or someone in my sleep…was searching for something. I don’t know what it was…but it was something. Just remembered Dan Brown… search for the Holy Grail! Read it? Even if you haven’t, doesn’t matter. It doesn’t change your life in any way! But I remember interpreting it in college…and missing it. Not the interpretation…the friend who helped me do so. Maybe that’s why the lines I read in the morning stuck me. At times, even I wonder…do I really know what is love? I interpret love as sharing life together…but don’t we do that with i...

Last night I had a strange feeling! Slept at 2:30am…was talking to my estranged ex-boyfriend about relationships. Don’t know though whether to call him ‘ex’, but guess can call him so, since we, rather I, decided to move out since it won’t result in marriage. I always thought it’s over…I have moved ahead. But then…all of a sudden…there came a mysterious lady…and made me insecure! He loves talking to him…guess my ego was hurt! ‘How the hell does he dare to love talking when he claims he is still in love??’ kinda feeling! Or was it just the thought of defeat? He is leaving me before I could leave him! Don’t know for sure…but nevertheless, I overreacted to the extent of having red swollen eyes and dizzy head. Kiddish? I don’t mind being so! And that’s when I thought of relationships…of all kinds. I heard somewhere, relationships are like sands…held loosely, it’s likely to remain intact…but the moment we try to close our palm, it slips away! I believed in that, believed in giving ...

Aaj kobitaay peyechey!!! Sokal sokal ekta kobita porlam…poralam-o… Bangla kobita inrigi horof-ey portey bhalo laage naa amar…eta reconfirmed holam ekjon bolar por…abar realize korlam bhalo laga ta ekta mental state…2 to manushek rokom bhable sekhanei bhalo laga aase…hoyto baa bhalobasao!! Jy hok…baaje kotha chere kobita ta likhi…tar aagey ekta odorkari kotha…amar ek bondhu kobita ta pore bollo, “eta ki? Kobita? Na jibon?” Ami bollam, “K jaaney!! Hoyto jiboner kobita!” Ebar baaje kotha chere kobita ta chapi…Happy Reading!! Ora Dujon - Shubodh Sarkar “ora dujon kuri bochor e okey bhalobashey prithibi theke onek durey arundhati onek durey kirtinasha, tobu ora dujon tokhon kachey ashey kuri bochor ora dujon morchey ghurey ghurey shurjo dobey arundhati jurey ek shohorey thakey dujon kintu ora du du-ti bari banay thaka ebong na thaka niye du bhagey bhag hote chay porgonay… shurjo dobey kirtinasha jurey dujoney bhabey ebar jodi paliye jai durey? palano ot...

Ekta olosh dupur…had nothing better to do…so was trying to go back to my love…I mean kobita!!! Ek purono bondhu…kichu purono kotha…kichu joma nirobota…hotath mone pore jaoa kichu kobita’r line! Thik korlam amar bhalolaga’r kobita, bhalobasa’r kobita der joma korbo ekhaney…prothome bhablam why not a different blog? Tarpor bhablam…ki jay ase!! Thak na ek jaygay joma…harie gele khuje pete subidhe hobe hoyto!! :-) Ei post ta kora sudhui koyekta kobita’r line’er jonyo…ek somoy portam…tarpor porte bhule gechilam…ba rather mone hoyni pora ta important! Tarpor mone holo kono bhalo lagar jinish’er modhyei hoyto bhalobasa beNche thakey! Ty…hotath G Talk e futey otha kichu line bondi korlam ei post ta t… “Tukro hoye choriye ache aalo Ek-khana kaanch bhengechilam mote Mukut theke khose porche palok Bish meshano thanda shorbot e… Haath paa bhaari Onyo rokom aayesh Sukno pata urche hawar chote Aaj dekchi tomar paaye paaye Chhere jaoa o shilpo hoye othe….”

I was thinking to write something for quite some time now…even last night I vouched that the first thing I would do on entering the office today is write on the blog…but as was obvious…only remembered it on my way back. Hey…between…I have promised myself to write often…guess that’s because I realized I have moved far away from photography! I mean…I just can’t click anymore …it’s so damn irritating!! You know you have a wonderful subject before you…but the moment you try capturing it…you lose all your concentration!! Not that I had enough of it before to boast of…but then somehow I had bits of it. And now…I have lost it!  Irritating? Funny? Weird? Well…my bro told me this last time I was back home…. “You are losing it!!!”  That’s a statement he made…and I snapped at him!! What shit!!! And now I realize he had always known me! He has always been so right! But then, I will live through it! Okay…coming to something more recent…I just spent an entire evening on phone! Talki...